This Isn’t Real Love

I am continually amazed as I look around to a world that has been taken in by Satan’s lies. They’re everywhere you look: in music, in movies, in your churches, in your homes, and in your mind. He is delightfully feeding you those scrumptious lies and guess what? you love it.

These lies are disguised as things we desire: fulfillment and satisfaction. They come in all shapes and sizes and feel good upon reaching our mental lips as we devour them hungrily, feasting on those lies rather than glorying in truth, or even holding them against truth to see if they be truth or lies. You with me?

So in this light, I am faced with a nagging feeling that I need to address the subject of love: what is it and what does it look like? (A side note is that I am single, therefore I may have a slightly off-balanced view of this subject; however, I do feel the Scriptures weigh nicely against the worldly view of so-called “love”.)

When I searched the definition of the word, it gave me a verb and a noun and I was appalled at the verb’s depiction of it for me: feel a deep romantic or sexual attachment to (someone). SAY WHAT?! Wait, this is not the definition of love I feel when my parents say they love me; nor is it what I feel when God says it to me. Why has the world seemingly taken this word and distorted it?

Satan is clever; he knows God’s heart and wants God’s will to be destroyed. And since God’s foundation for human beings – He is the standard of the word – is love, Satan has set out to destroy it and anything pertaining to it. How has he done this? By making the word LOVE to mean I feel something deep inside me for you that I want to have sex with you. 

Whoa, whoa, whoa – did I just say that? Is that a real thing? Surely I can’t mean that.

But I do. And if you’ve ever listened to a song on a secular radio station, then you know what I’m talking about. Country, pop, rock, rap… you name it. They may be called “love songs”, but I can assure you the definition of love in these lyrics is not a biblical understanding of the word. Let’s look at some examples of what I’m talking about; I’m not making this stuff up, y’all.

I’m in love with the shape of you
We push and pull like a magnet do
Although my heart is falling too
I’m in love with your body

You’re so damn fine, and you’re on my mind
And I’m gon’ lose it
When you look at me, look at me with those big pretty blue eyes
Love on me, love on me, in the middle of a long night
I can’t help but tell myself, oh you boy you got it so good with this good looking girl

⊗ If your gonna hold me, hold me like I’m leaving
If your gonna kiss me, kiss me like you need it
Baby if your not your best get to leavin’
If your gonna love me, love me like you mean it

Lust, lust, lust. That’s what “love” is these days. Love these days seeks to take advantage of someone else; seeks for one’s own pleasure in that moment. It feels good, is impulsive, and often leaves the party on the other end feeling neglected and alone, in fact, emptier for having filled themselves on that type of love.

If you’ve come from a conservative background such as I have, you may only be just now getting exposure to this. And if your parents know the true meaning of love, they’ve given you a good understanding that love is not sexual relation. “Love is not a feeling, but a decision”, my parents’ voices echo in my head. “It’s a decision we have to make every day.”

God did not possess a gushy, sexual feeling for you when He placed His Son on that cross to die in your place. What a disgusting picture that gives me! Just stop and ponder that for a moment and put God in that position just to grasp what that means. It’s gross! No, God was not moved by emotion, but by good will, which is a fruit of love. If you truly love someone, you want what’s best for them; you want them to be happy, and see their true worth. Like when your parents would discipline you for a wrong doing, they did it for your own good. We call that “tough love”: it seeks what’s best for that person in that moment, and does it. Real love doesn’t let faults slide, which is what most parents today do with their children: they think “loving” their child is letting them have anything and everything they want, and in turn, we have a country full of children growing up thinking everyone owes them and, if they do not get what they want, they turn to drugs, alcohol, murder, rape, and even suicide because someone didn’t really love them and there’s a gap left in their life. Do the math; you know it’s true.

Can you imagine if God’s definition of love was the same as ours? Imagine we set the standard to love and God went on our whims: us girls would likely have been married at 14 to that guy who we thought was “so amazing” and be miserable right now, if we were even still married. We’d likely be a single parent, trying to figure out what happened, raising 3 kids and cursing “that bum” who’s now rotting in jail. Everything would be based on feelings and whims, and there’d be no logical solution to anything because “love is getting what you want”, right?

The biggest concern I have in this thinking is not necessarily that the world has distorted it’s take on love, but that Christians now seem to think this is also the standard of love. I hear girls say, “I just want to be loved!” Excuse me, but you are, girl! By a perfect and holy Man who walked this earth and died in your place! When really what they mean is they want to be “loved” physically by a man with his hands on them. I know; I’ve felt that way and it’s a natural desire, but also wicked trap to be enclosed in if you live in it. But the problem is that now even so-called “Christian music” has been laced with this concept of love: the shallow words sing of God’s love for us and how we love Him, but speaks nothing of sacrifice. It’s become an overwhelming display of “Jesus is my boyfriend” type words that sicken me in to my very core! These are words that if the word “Jesus” be taken out and replaced with another man’s name, it would now be a love song to someone I adore in a physical sense. Indeed this display of twisted affection has awakened me to find the true meaning of love: what it looks like, feels like, and means for a Christian to walk in love and to shower it on those around them.

Obviously the verses of the bible that come to mind are all of 1 Corinthians 13. My King James Version labels it “charity” , which is the standard for love in the Christian walk. Let’s look at the points it gives to what love is:

  • Suffereth long
  • Is kind
  • Envieth not
  • Vaunteth not itself
  • Is not puffed up
  • Doth not behave itself unseemly
  • Seeketh not her own
  • Is not easily provoked
  • Thinketh no evil
  • Rejoiceth not in iniquity, but rejoiceth in truth
  • Beareth all things
  • Believeth all things
  • Hopeth all things
  • Endureth all things
  • Never faileth

“And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.” 1 Corinthians 13:13

So now that your eyes have been opened to the impact Satan is having, what are you to do with it? Tell others, just hold onto it? You’re gonna have to decide that, but be warned that Satan wants God’s true love destroyed. He’s taking a lot of people down with him, and he’s far from done, so do not be deceived. Walk in love, true love, that God outlines for us in His Word.  
   ~ Cameron 


A Letter to the Single Girl 

This is a letter to single girls who are looking for their purpose in life if marriage seems like a distant coast; barely, if at all visible. For me, at 22, I have to say I have questioned it would ever come. But the Lord continues to show me that {ahem, excuse this midwifery reference} just like a woman who feels her time for birth and meeting her new baby will “never come!”, He is working and His timing is always right.
2017 has been a roller coaster for me. It’s honestly been the worst year of my life when it came to feeling purposeful. Never have I felt so alone, confused, & almost as if I didn’t know who I was or where I was even going. Studying became an identity, and I embraced it, but found not the joy I sought. I was so lost and caught up in thinking I was doing what I was supposed to, but fulfillment didn’t come.

He Leadeth Me

In the midst of this, the Lord really was gracious, & gentle, but very firm. I realized that my many “trials” were nothing more than I deserved, & had brought on myself. I was walking in my own path, not the Lord’s. So if you’re feeling this is you and you don’t know where you’re going, let’s just say you’re not alone and I’ve been there. This letter isn’t going to be sweet words of honey, but more like a spoonful of vinegar if you’re not ready to hear. Be prepared, & pray for the Lord to give you the heart to receive as you read on.
Often, in the “homeschool/sheltered” circle I grew up in and still am in, I see a pattern of girls who are “home”. And while they often have many reasons for this being their calling.
What Does Scripture Say?  

There is difference also between a wife and a virgin. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit: but she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please her husband.

1 Corinthians 7:34
Interesting. So God’s take is that the unmarried woman cares for the things that please Him, and keeping herself pure. Obviously it doesn’t come on out and say that she’s not at home, but when you’re in your early twenties and you’re still at home doing housework and living the life you lived at 15, is this God’s will for your life? I can’t answer that for you; perhaps it is, but I can tell you that for me it wasn’t, and isn’t. Marriage isn’t on my horizon for anytime soon, so what am I to do? Wait for it? Is it God’s will we live lives of homemakers when we aren’t {yet} homemakers? Until we marry, we won’t be. And while preparation is good (knowing how to cook, ironing, doing laundry, sweeping floors, changing diapers), you should have mastered that at 12 years old (if you’re like me and have many younger siblings). Bottom line: is your calling under your parents’ roof, or does it look like something else? Here’s my take:
Until marriage comes along, you are God’s. When you are of age (18? 20, 21?), if you are still under your father’s roof, then yes, you should answer, submit, and honor him; he is still your leader unless you step OUT of that and move into a home of your own (married or not). But ultimately, God will judge you for what you do and how you spend what He’s given you. When He gives you a husband, you’ll be his wife. Right now, you are God’s girl, first and foremost. Married, you’ll be a wife, first and foremost, and your man will call the shots. Just as God calls you to honor your husband in marriage (whenever that happens), He expects you to honor Him with that same type of honor, just magnified, because He’s God. In marriage, He still gets the same reference, but it’ll be different because your channel of serving to Him will be through your husband.
Let’s Dive Deeper

As single ladies, we have been given something very, very special: the gift of time. That may not seem so right now while you’re chomping at the bit to try and make sense of your life and why in the world God hasn’t given you a husband!?? But really, let’s be sensible. You know no amount of want will bring you a husband. And please don’t be silly enough to think flirtation will get you anywhere; perhaps it’ll get you a male, but it will not get you a man who’ll love you above all.
So this gift of time – what do we do with it? Working at home isn’t enough for the woman who wants to use her life for the glory of God, so what does that look like for you? Here’s what I’ve learned, and has worked for me (and others. I get this question a lot, so experience is speaking here): While you are wasting this gift called time that God has given to you, He will not – I repeat, will NOT – give you a bigger task to undertake. Often our struggles are brought on by us thinking God isn’t working, but really, it’s us who’s being lazy. God has given you the resources to take and run with this life. He has given you a brain that works (hopefully), and hands to serve with; feet to take you where He wants you to be, and eyes to read in His Word about who He is and what He expects of you.
Proverbs 31 for the Unmarried Woman

I find Proverbs 31 is relevant even if you aren’t married. Because, as you should know, God wants us to be proactive; the lady in Proverbs 31 didn’t learn how to do all the things she was doing by washing dishes and folding laundry. She was working nonstop, learning all the time. And, you know, marriage doesn’t automatically make you this kind of woman, so you better start now!

Let’s look at a list of things she did:
She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. {she is active in seeking work and doing it}

She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar.

She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. {she has her own properties: i.e. rental properties?}

She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. {takes care of her body}

She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night. {she buys and resales, working well into the night to achieve her dreams}

She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff. {making clothing, a worthy occupation few girls know how to do today}

She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy. {she ministers to those who have less than she does: i.e. homeless, orphans, immigrants}

She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant.

She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness. {idleness is so common in homeschool families in girls, even if a family business is in play. It’s a bad thing to be idle when you could be serving and pleasing the Lord.}

   Did you know you could be a Proverbs 31 woman before marriage? Indeed. 

Here’s the gist of the whole article: your purpose is to take action bringing honor and glory to the Lord and souls to His Kingdom right now in your singleness. You will never have the time to do this if ever a husband and family comes into your life; you just won’t. Right now there is no higher calling than to be doing something for the Lord. If you don’t know what to do, then find something. Once God sees you are on the move to bring Him glory, I PROMISE you He’s gonna open a door. He has something to give to you, a HUGE opportunity, but since you’re only praying and not seeking for it, He can’t give it to you because you’re not moving; and if you’re not, He can’t. It takes a leap of faith out of your comfort zone. I promise you it won’t be easy, but it WILL be worth it. As a woman who’s been given her purpose for midwifery missions, I think I have an idea of how He works and when. So take it from someone who’s not an expert, but who has experienced the moving of God in her life. You won’t be left with empty hands, and definitely not an empty heart, because ministry and bringing glory to God always involves people.
So, stop waiting for God’s timing to be just right. He doesn’t revolve around time, so His time is right now. The time is right RIGHT NOW. New concept, even for me! And what a beautiful one it is! He doesn’t disappoint; He gave you passions and desires that correlate together like no one else on the earth, and He expects you to be using those in His honor. Will you? Will you take that leap of faith and begin? The journey is so worth it!
~ Cameron ~

The Idol I Found in Social Media


During the course of the last few months, my life has taken some unexpected turns and twists, throwing me and my plans into the air multiple times. Confusion, stress, brain fog & shut-down, physical and health challenges… the works. Since March, my life has been anything BUT normal.

Since the summer of 2011, when I accepted Christ, my life has been a series of puzzle pieces falling into place. I have seen the hand of God move in great ways over my life; blessing me and those around me because I have willingly obeyed His voice. Not because I always knew it was “just the right thing to do”, but mostly out of curiosity & excitement for the adventure I knew was ahead. Because I knew if God was involved, He would definitely have something up His sleeve to make this new chapter fun, mysterious, & absolutely thrilling. Its the way He works, and I have LOVED following Him to watch how He unfolds things.

But these last few months, I’ve felt out of touch. Things just didn’t feel right! I don’t think I’ve ever shed so many tears out of frustration at myself because things weren’t the same as before. What’s wrong with me? Why wasn’t I feeling the peace of God anymore? Why wasn’t the path clear anymore? What happened to the great adventure of following God and being in the midst of His never-ending whirlwind of happenings? Things changed, and I didn’t like it. What was different?

Since being called to the mission field and midwifery, lots had happened pertaining to that, but mostly I was an icon on social media. I was the girl with the sheep and cows, working her tail off on the farm, sharing great pictures from the life as a shepherdess & cowgirl. I was *it*. People adored my posts; they “looked for them” when they scrolled. I was a celebrity in all my doings, & I loved the attention. I thrived off it. “How many likes will this post get?” “Ah, this picture is going to blow up because it’s AMAZING!” “HASHTAGS for more likes on Instagram!” It was my life; who I was, and all I stood for. I lived life for social media, and it absolutely ruined me and my view on life. It was debilitating, & detrimental to my walk with Christ.

I say that even though I still read my Bible, still prayed and posted prayers on my prayer wall at home. I posted Scripture & wrote long posts about my Christian walk, but I didn’t really live it out in my heart. It was all a front, even though I’d go through parts of my life that were so amazing due to what I was learning in Christ & who I was becoming as a result of it. I’ve grown lots, but really I haven’t enjoyed life because it was life: I enjoyed life because I could share it on social media and get likes by people double-tapping the screen, or hitting the thumbs-up.

Upon realizing this, I despised the distraction it had caused me from truly meaningful things: my schooling, my family, personal development, my walk with Christ. I realized I survived on the opinions of others and how many likes I got on posts & photos. When I didn’t get as many likes on one post, I felt personally rejected. When an amazing photo or post got lots of likes & comments & shares, oh, I had hit the top and was “so cool!” I was so wrong, y’all. So wrong!

Because I was focusing on the outward: what people thought of me, and no longer what GOD thought of me! Who’s opinion is more important? Who’s opinion has more depth & value? Who’s REALLY matters?

These last few months, I’ve felt out of touch with the world of social media because I was no longer the farm girl with great pictures. Life had changed and I wasn’t working the animals anymore and it caused me to do a lot of inward searching because my social media posts just weren’t “doing it” anymore. I questioned what had happened to me: why wasn’t I being as impactful anymore? I questioned myself instead of realizing what I had done to myself. And I now look at it with disgust. I made an idol of social media and was over-obsessed with it. So wrong, y’all! Ugh! I even created a NEW social media account (one I had given up last year due to others reasons) to see if I could create the feeling again on a new platform. Granted, I didn’t do it to “get back that feeling of importance”, but I know subconsciously, that’s what I was doing.

Often we don’t realize the detriment we do to ourselves with social media. The whole world is on there sharing their lives and living on likes. It’s pulling our lives into a computer or phone screen instead of into the Word of God, and into Christ! Where was it that our priorities suddenly became so shifted? When did we so suddenly become so caught up in likes and using THAT as our self-image and how good we were, rather than leaning on the Words of the Lord and claiming ALL HE IS as WHO WE ARE! Ah, the rubber meets the road right there. The truth comes out and it is so painful if we realize we are not all as good as we thought we were. We assess and we just don’t like the person who’s not as perfect as that social media image. We are living a lie.

Scripture called me out this morning in my study of 2 Corinthians. You know when you’re in a state of repentance and all the verses seem to be about you and your particular situation and struggle? Yeah, I get it, Lord. 🙂

 2 Corinthians: 
     6:16 And what agreement hath the temple of God with idols? for ye are the temple of the living God; as God hath said, I will dwell in them, and walk in them; and I will be their God, and they shall be my people.

I had made social media my idol. I had defiled my temple by living my life for social media, and not for God. I was not walking in the fact that I am the temple of God – His dwelling! – and that He walks IN ME, and I was not allowing Him to walk out His plan through me.

4:6 For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.

While I was very vocal about my walk with Christ, that I’m a Christian, and that it truly is the most important thing to me, I didn’t really believe it when it came right down to it, because I wasn’t walking in it! I am such a hypocrite! Just as God called light from the darkness at the beginning of the Bible, He also calls us from darkness into Light in Him and tells us to walk in it, showing the Light to the world. To hide it and not really believe it is to hold the honor from Him that He so richly deserves. Plus it withholds our own blessings from Him and keeps us from blessing those around us with the Light we’ve been given.

4:18 While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.

The things I focused on were things that would pass away: the words of man. Rather than seeking God for true fulfillment, & running my life based on His thought of me and how He viewed me. I was so caught up in the physical and temporal things, which are not eternal. We are called to focus on the eternal things. I didn’t do that.

I did not write this post for your benefit, but if you are feeling a prick because you’re also guilty in the area of social media idolatry, perhaps it is time to also reassess your true use of it. I am taking a social media break for me and in that decision, God is showing me my true heart and goal in life, and that it was not Him. And I want to change that. So I will not be back on social media until I am sure that God has taught me what I need to learn, and that I have TRULY learned it! I will no longer allow it to rule me. I am calling out my idol.

~ Cameron ~

“Can God Still Use Me?”

You still want me


This is not an easy topic to write about, but especially to elaborate one; but for the sake of helping free each other through Christ, I am writing to the ones who feel they’re strayed too far for God to ever use again. I’m here to tell you: stop thinking that way. Read these verses before we get into the post for today. Yes, ALL 11 of them. Read!

13 Wherefore gird up the loins of your mind, be sober, and hope to the end for the grace that is to be brought unto you at the revelation of Jesus Christ;

14 As obedient children, not fashioning yourselves according to the former lusts in your ignorance:

15 But as he which hath called you is holy, so be ye holy in all manner of conversation;

16 Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.

17 And if ye call on the Father, who without respect of persons judgeth according to every man’s work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear:

18 Forasmuch as ye know that ye were not redeemed with corruptible things, as silver and gold, from your vain conversation received by tradition from your fathers;

19 But with the precious blood of Christ, as of a lamb without blemish and without spot:

20 Who verily was foreordained before the foundation of the world, but was manifest in these last times for you,

21 Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.

22 Seeing ye have purified your souls in obeying the truth through the Spirit unto unfeigned love of the brethren, see that ye love one another with a pure heart fervently:

23 Being born again, not of corruptible seed, but of incorruptible, by the word of God, which liveth and abideth for ever.
1 Peter 1:13-23

Wherewithal shall a young man cleanse his way? by taking heed thereto according to thy word.
Psalm 119:9


If you didn’t read the verses above and simply scrolled past them thinking, “Oh, I know what they say,” or even just scanned them, then you won’t get nearly as much value out of this post, because the full impact is already there from the Word of God: you’ve chosen to miss the complete message by not reading it. So go back and read it.

This is a very hard subject to touch on because it deals with failure in your Christian walk: sin. We all do it; don’t deny it. Lying (even to ourselves in thinking we can never be good enough for anything, or will never do anything right, or are a terrible person, etc. etc. etc. and all those other stupid things we believe about ourselves). Hatred. Malice. Bitterness. Lust. Fornication in one’s heart. Thievery. Not forgiving someone. Addiction to drugs, pornography, alcohol. You name it. Sin is sin, and God has a certain standard, Man has a certain standard, and we have our own standards, all of which we’ve broken.

Sin does not become sin simply because Man says so. If that were the case, abortion would be the most amazing thing on the planet; murderers would be given medals and everyone would be rushing to kill someone else to receive a bigger reward for having gotten their 10th kill.
No, sin is sin because God says so and gives us a certain knowledge of truth in our own hearts as to what’s wrong and right. One might see pulling a prank on someone as an absolute joke, while the next guy may see it as deceitful and lying to him to get him to do something he wouldn’t do otherwise. A woman may wear something absolutely provocative and cause a man to lust after her, while another man may not even notice. These things aren’t necessarily address in the Word of God (not from what I’ve found, however; please do enlighten me if I am wrong), but because of both experiences of these people, their responses are different.

However, that was not where I was going with this particular article. I am talking to that person who has openly sinned against God, knowing they did wrong, and yet still did it (or continuing to do it). The person who’s done it so many times, is still a believer, yet feels at such a loss for God and His meaning for them. You feel deserted, abandoned; yet you know you’ve distanced yourself (even knowing you were doing it), but how to get back is unknown. The devil, reveling in his glory in that he’s “got you AGAIN!”, sticks close beside, snickering and waving those sins in front of you, ever reminding you of them. He tells you, “Ah, but you’ve gone too far! God doesn’t love you anymore; you’re doomed, so stay and play with me!” “You’re having SO much fun! Why would you ever want to quit now? The party’s just now started!”

If that’s you, you’re far from alone. I stand right there with you. I’ve felt that way and Satan has deceived me more than I care to admit. It’s a hard thing when your guard is down and he creeps every so “lovingly” in and starts playing with your mind. I’ve truly experienced “the idle mind is the devil’s workshop” concept and it’s not a pretty sight or experience. Sin is ugly; a black hole we often crawl into with the excuses of loneliness, sadness, heartbreak, etc. You know what drove you to it; it’s different for everyone. But God doesn’t just drop you off when you’ve deserted Him — and YOU were the one that deserted Him, not the other way around. Don’t get that confused, because the devil will try to convince you otherwise.

If you truly did go back and read those verses as you were told, you noticed the word “obedience”. What a simplistic, amazingly beautiful word. So easy to follow, right? *chuckle* Ha. Right!

The most beautiful verses that struck me was 22 and 23 of 1 Peter chapter 1: go back and read them before you continue this.

Peter writes that the purification of the soul came by obeying the truth through the Spirit. Dropping down to vs 23, he states we were born again (saved) not of corruptible seed, but if incorruptible, by the word of God. That means that you were not born again into Christ’s death by your work, therefore cannot be separated from Him (lose your salvation) due to your works. This is another whole article to be written, as Hebrews talks about how you can lose your salvation, but for the impact of this article, I’m driving home the fact that if you are under the blood of Christ, while it matters what you do (you’ll give any account of everything), your sin hasn’t driven you so far from God that He doesn’t want to use you anymore.

In my own sin, Satan continually pressed my head down, seemingly trying to drown me. This was after I got saved, not before, mind you. I’m not talking to unbelievers here, but to those who have believed already, but are continually reminded of their sin by Satan. You have the power to unlock those chains you’ve created for yourself in your own mind through Christ, so stop procrastinating and do it already! Please! For your own sake, and the sake of your testimony to Christ.

Psalm 119:9 states that the cleansing of one’s soul does not come through prayer, does not come through “getting over your sin”, but to take heed unto the Word. Have you done that? Have you reminded Satan of your identity in Christ? If you haven’t, I just told you how: by the Word! Your life can bring so much glory to God if you let Him work through you. But you’ve got to come to the conclusion that the only way to get “over” this sin, is by the Word: reading it, believing it, and putting it into practice. You have that power in Him, so USE IT!!

“Thy word have I hid in mine heart, that I might not sin against thee.”
Psalm 119:11

There’s a reason that verse is put 2 down from verse 9: Purify your soul by hiding His Word in your heart so you don’t sin against Him. Why do we make this so complicated? I mean, really? Let’s get over ourselves already and believe God.

So there you have it; take it and run with it back to God. Show Satan who’s boss again and stop letting him deceive you. If your friend kept lying to you, you’d have deserted them long ago; stop letting Satan back in! He’s not gonna change.

“Change you mind, change you life.” Remember your thoughts control your emotions. Take control of those thoughts (captive unto Christ: 2 Corinthians 10:5) and boot Satan out.

If you decide you can’t do this alone, let me help. Shoot me an email so I can know of your struggles; no judgement here — I’ve been there myself! We all need to stand together and if you’re afraid to reach for help, you’re once again giving in to those lies of the devil. Don’t do it. Find a friend and share. Don’t hesitate: sin loves darkness.

“…Son, be of good cheer; thy sins be forgiven thee.”
Matthew 9:2


~ Cameron

“Look At Me…”

look at me


11: “For the grace of God that bringeth salvation hath appeared to all men,
12: Teaching us that, denying ungodliness and worldly lusts, we should live soberly, righteously, and godly, in this present world;
13: Looking for that blessed hope, and the glorious appearing of the great God and our Saviour Jesus Christ;”
Titus 2:11-13

While the verses above impact me as a Christian, and remind me about God’s amazing grace and the hope it offers, verse 13 is where I want to focus, particularly on the first word: looking.

For the last few weeks, my life has been the essence of a roller coaster lost on the track, not attached to anything, and having no breaks to stop on a downhill slope. I have recently gone from working a full time job on a farm to pretty much just a few hours a week. As I saw my funds in the bank dwindle and the bills kept coming, I begin to panic and wonder. All my friends knew I was stressed and overwhelmed; everyone I spoke to got my spill and knew what was happening with Cameron. (For those who got the earful over and over, I’m sorry!)

I don’t know what made me realize my mistake, but I remember waking up to see a quote on an image and I liked it. The image was of a small child holding his parent’s hand and they’re walking through what looks like a desert. The quote reads, “God doesn’t give us what we can handle. He helps us handle what we have been given.” As I begin writing to post this to Facebook, I felt the Holy Spirit prick my spirit. I heard God speak to me and ask why I didn’t believe this quote and why I wasn’t really trusting Him.
 “Have I not led you through waters before? Have I ever forsaken you? Why doubtest thou Me?” Oh, but I do trust you, Lord! “No, you say you do, but you do not act it out. Why are you doubting Me? Stop looking at your feet and look at Me.”

Look at Me. Look at Me. This; three words that define my relationship with Christ. My dear heavenly Father, I am so feeble and weak!
I know the verse above is speaking of salvation and looking forward to heaven, but when I read it I realized my focus was wrong; it had shifted to my feet – downward! And how well can we walk when we’re looking at our feet? Ha, not very well! I tend to bang my head a lot. The focus had shifted to see where my feet were going; what the next step was. I was asking myself, “What’s the next step? OK, one foot in front of the other; yep, the next step…” STRESS! Being OVERWHELMED! I’m going to die! 

How many times have we done this to ourselves? Our focus becomes so self-centered and Christ is no longer in the picture. We then wonder why we’ve been left; where has He gone? I’m alone. But we’re not; not even close. He goes before us, making the path in the darkness, beating away the prey that lurks, overshadowing us in His Light. Our feet shuffle anxiously; our voice becomes weak and our hearts become burdened. And we can still be holding His hand, but we falter and stumble more often when we take our eyes off Him. We tend more to hear the cry of the howling wolves, the screech of an owl, the lies of the devil… Why? Because we’re sheep and follow the herd instead of the Shepherd. We’re silly, dumb sheep (I’m speaking from experience lol)! We hear Him call and instead of looking up to see where He’s calling from, we look at our feet and say, “Which way?!”

Remember how you got here? By following. Following! You followed Him. He led and you followed. So easy, right? Ha. Laughable. Not. But He doesn’t promise it will be; He just says He’ll be there right beside you along the way. He didn’t promise a path not walked, He just asked that you go. His only promise: “I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.” 

So stop looking down at your feet trying to make sense of the path and just follow Him where He leads. He won’t lead you astray no matter what the devil, your mama, your daddy, your uncle, or anyone else says! Stop listening to the those voices and tune into His gentle one: “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” {Mt. 4:19}

Look at Him, you. LOOK at HIM. His precious face; feel His warm hand, hear His gentle footsteps going before, the angels around you singing. You’re not alone, so look back up. 


~ Cameron


To the Other Side of the World…

“I will follow, Lord; I will follow.”

When I told God that in December of 2011, 4 months after I took Him as my own, I didn’t know what the full impact of those words on my future self would really look like. Across the sea He took me; across the street to a neighbor; to the sidewalks of Nashville to speak life into abortion-minded women. Ministry has been the name of the game for many years for me, and missionary work has been no joke. It’s not nearly as glamorous as it sounds, believe me.

At age 12, I remember reading a story of a girl who had wanted to marry a missionary; I had scoffed, wondering how a girl in her right mind would desire something that crazy! Leave the comforts of a home, family, America?! Riiiight…wise girl! *eye roll*
Little did I know the God (literally I didn’t know Him then) sitting on His throne who had such big plans to not make me marry a missionary, but to become one myself! What a sense of humor He has!

Fast forward to today: Age 21, with 22 fast approaching. Midwifery academics is coming fast to a close as the months tick quickly by. As the Lord leads me down this path, I find myself in contact with people I never would have imagined I’d meet; I also see His blessings in every single aspect of my life and His glory raining down upon my little blonde head for me to shine brightly in this dark world.

But it doesn’t end there; it’s not even really where it starts. It started when I was 16 when I got saved, but I never thought I’d be touching down in Asia once again before I got to the country He’s actually called me to. Here, in May 2017, God has called me to the Philippines to continue my schooling as a midwife, working with a school there for 12-18 months in order to receive the knowledge I will need to practice in another Asian country as a full-fledged midwife. That’s a VERY big leap for this gal, and it actually scares the heck out of me to think I’m gonna up and move across the world without even having ever been there. But God leads, and I follow without question, knowing He’s got me in His great big hand and I’m in the middle of His will in following. There’s no such joy and peace!

So there’s my story, but it doesn’t end here either; in fact, that’s only a small stepping stone: a little bitty pebble in the ocean!
Like all missionaries, there has been something they needed that it took others to get: money. The big, fat M-word that most people hate to say or even ask for. Why does it really have to be used? Can’t we get along without it? Hasn’t it already caused enough damage, heartache, ruin?? No.. God told me “No. Trust Me. You plan; I’ll provide.”

So I did. And here I am today, His blessed assurance flooding my soul. Many ask how they can support me; it makes my skin crawl. I cringe every time! Why? Because I feel like I’m taking their life away by taking their money. They need to feed their family; save for college; support another MORE IMPORTANT missionary, right? Not me; why do I get their attention and privilege? I’m SO humbled by their want to serve ME! God, thank you!

I’ve done something most missionaries have never done: pledged to myself and God that I’d never go in front of a church and ask for their support, or ever go to my family and friends for money. I just can’t do that! It makes me cringe, wretch, and writhe! I hate it! My mind screams, “RUN!” every time I think of it. The thought of answering to Man in terms of how I spend his money, or taking money from those dearest to me is what makes my heart ache. Not that accountability isn’t good – it is! – but I want to be able to spend the money God provides as He sees fit: not me, not you – HIM. Strange, right? (You’ll get used to it after awhile, I’m sure. If you stick with me long enough 😉

But there is a way you can help; two ways, actually. First, PRAY. Pray, pray, pray for me. I’m young, ambitious, excited, scared, dumb, and extremely devoted. This mission is my life, my breath, my sleep. It’s on my mind every single moment of the day and how I can make it happen faster or who can I touch along the way. So please pray and don’t stop.
The second way is through my business. I started a business that is like a tree for me: my tree of Life and hope and excitement, branching out to impact me and others along the way. It’s a health business and I absolutely LOVE it and how it’s helped me and how I know it can help others. I’ve always known that I couldn’t take something without giving back; and also that I would need something I could hinge on once I reached my destination country – something I could use for my girls who were looking to me for their midwifery care. This business allows me to impact people here, while impacting others over there too! That’s exciting to me.

So I started a business: a health and wellness business I could work from home or anywhere I went. I don’t have to stock inventory so I can take it anywhere, and I plan to take it with me wherever I go. But the best part is you can access it from your own home as well. If you are the kind of person that needs to get your health back on track, or know someone who does, we need to talk. If you like working out, taking care of your temple of God, helping others change their lives for the better, we need to talk! This is my ministry right now: I’m choosing to bloom where I’m planted and this is what God has brought me to. I don’t want your money; I want to earn your support and help YOU since you’re giving to me. I want to give you something in return for your heart for me and for serving Christ through me by giving, which means supporting my business.
Some may see this as selling them on something they don’t want or know anything about, but that’s OK; they don’t have to understand. God didn’t ask me to understand; He simply asked that I obey and follow. Will I? You bet! Will you? That’s up the you.
If you would like to help support my business, you can email me at: or find and message me on Facebook. This business fuels my mission and you get 3 things by supporting it: laying up of treasures in heaven (you receive the same reward as I do, Jesus said {Mark 9:41}); you can achieve the best health you’ve ever had; you can help others also achieve it. It’s a win-win.
(I will also be hosting a sponsorship program once I’m to my destination country where you can pay for these health products for others as another form of ministry. But that’s another whole blog post in and of itself.)


In our blessed Saviour, Christ the Lord, may you have a blessed day and find your continual rest in Him. Love always from this Tennessee girl!
~ Cameron

The Gossip I Learned From



A few years ago, I had this cool chick friend. She seemed to be all I wanted to be: confident, outgoing, name it – she was it! I loved her! I would go to her house a lot and hang out all the time. But after awhile, I started noticing a pattern in our conversations and it took me longer than I wish to admit to learn my lesson from a situation that left me reeling.

My friend liked to talk about folks, but particularly her neighbors. She loved talking and I love listening. Every visit, she would talk and I would listen (and too often agree with her) to her gossip about her neighbor and how they never seemed to get along, and how her neighbor dis this or that or said this or that, “but never lived up to it.” (Ha, isn’t that just like us humans – always seeing the faults in others.) However, I noticed when they were together, my friend would never act like anything was wrong and that her neighbor was the queen of the world and everything was fine and dandy.

A few months later my friend got on Facebook and bashed “some people” for being haughty, judgmental, and hypocritical. I, like a fool, commented and praised her for her “being bold” and told her how proud I was of her speaking out. *insert God’s lightning bolt zapping me because He should have*

Indeed, both of us had taken the easy way out and got in very big trouble, as the neighbor knew exactly who was being talked about and had know  all along that things weren’t exactly right. I was soon reprimanded and saw my error in public bashing when the neighbor had not been confronted personally. I had been a partaker in ungodly gossip and had not nipped it before it blossomed. And not only had it fed the speakers ego, but it fed mine, AND gave me negative thoughts and feelings about the gossipee. Not a good triangle to be in, let me tell you. It was a hard lesson.

Most people would now give Philippines 4:8 as a reference, but I feel Colossians 3:12-17 is more fitting. It says,

“Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;
13 Forbearing one another, and forgiving one another, if any man have a quarrel against any: even as Christ forgave you, so also do ye.
14 And above all these things put on charity, which is the bond of perfectness.
15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.
16 Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom; teaching and admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing with grace in your hearts to the Lord.
17 And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God and the Father by him.”

Since that time, I have seen the hurts of gossip. It’s indeed a poisonous viper that works against us. We think it will poison the person being spoken of; but in actuality, the speaker and the willing hearer are the ones in deep muck – and have muck in their hearts, mouths, and fire in their tongue that leaps our in their words, burning those around them. Know that “if anyone gossips to you, they’ll gossip about you.”

So before we partake in gossip or speak gossip about someone, let us examine our hearts and our words.
Are they truthful and glorifying to God?
Are they valuable?
Are they polite?
Are they godly?
Are they holy?
Are they of good report?

Examine 👉🏼❤️

~ Cameron